Lustful Reverie

The moment born, a prison built for me

Chains forged from what they supposed I could be

A child to fit a deviant design

A life mapped out yet not meant to be mine

A child turned adult, shackles of greed

A wretched hymn that sings to fantasy

A paradise of lustful reverie

A land where time itself would cease

Bound to endless release

They carved this prison into me

The echoes of a past never fade

Though the moments have vanished away

They’re captured, time forever stands

I am gripped by hidden hands

Forever in eternal gaze

A picture of me remains

Through the years, through the pain

In the silence, they will still call my name

My nightmare lingers, but not as my own

An untold truth of torture, suffered alone

Yet now it gleams in another’s eyes

Lustful reverie, paradise disguised

Once burned bright in me, now cold and gone

Not dead, but buried beneath what they’ve done

I am exposed yet my truth behind it untold

The forsaken child my innocence sold

Alive in softer chains, bound to endless gaze

Immortal is my truth traversing an endless maze

Used then hunted, my body claimed

An open casket, but I am neither dead nor named

Used then hunted, my body on display

Open the casket where they come back to betray

Used then hunted with more of me to break

Open the casket, I’m still here, awake

Used then hunted, like prey they keep on display

Keep the casket open, their perversion never fades

The lid stays open, a wound that never heals

A prison of eyes, where freedom’s just a dream that steals

Not truly gone, but caught in endless stare

A constant reminder of peace they will never spare

A hold unyielding and strong,

In their eyes, this is where I belong

The casket stays open for all to see

Shattered remains of what was once me

Ripped through me, took all I had to give

I lie in silence without my own will to live

They walk free

And I? Enslaved, chains made of blame

A tool for their desires

With no choice my piece put in their game

My veins circulate the epitome of shame

I was the sacrifice

Then the one that they could blame

They all walk away untouched

While I will never be the same

I was their tool

Servitude to bend to their will

Made me the scapegoat

To cover for where they are ill

Then if I dared dream my own life to see?

A punishment meant for only me

To be hunted down sadistically

Because from their abuse I myself broke free

Escaped, but their grip always finds me

Stalking eyes watching ever so closely

My own life? I am not allowed to keep it

I broke free

And they will always make me regret it

Their claw marks are etched in my skin

Can I fight?

It's a battle they will make sure to always win

Tore myself free

But they bound tighter still

I ran

Then hunted and claimed against my will

My rise excites them

But not in the way you think

It’s the fall they crave

They like to watch it all sink

I broke free!

Dragged back into the hell for me they made

How do I escape?

Their grip finds me

Their designed fate I stay

Can I slip away?

They reel me in with cruel precision

How about I tear myself loose?

Snared again

Caught in their abhorrent vision

What if I ran?

The chains tighten, pulling me back

A relentless demand

Can't I free myself?

Their cruelty doesn’t release

Held by their hidden hand

I fight for truth

So they smother it

Drowning me in their vile design

So long as they thrive in the world

My life is not meant to be mine

A dark fantasy made to be mine

For hidden hands the stars align

The life belonging to me left behind

Bound hands to forever find

In the dark where their echoes weave

My name is made to deceive

Hidden hands aren't attached to my name

Arranged in position to bring endless shame

Laid upon the altar of crime

The light that was supposed to be mine